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Oct

Well, kindasorta.

Finally, I have my business license AKA Business Tax Certificate (because California has to take the fun out of everything), my Fictitious Business Name Statement and, last but not least, my seller’s permit. Yay! Go Me! I am official and all legal-like. This is just the neatest thing, the greatest feeling in the world! Yes, everyone at the various offices was laughing at me and my excitement. I know that they process these things about 50 times a day but I don’t. I only have the one and this is it! So I’m entitled to be excited, I think.

Today, however, was a bit rough. So, awhile back I was trying to get my teeny head around Filemaker Pro to set up this nifty database doing all sorts of things I have crawling around in my melon. Nope, not gonna happen. My brain just doesn’t work well with databases. So I talked to Miss Computer Goddess and she mentioned that she was trying to do the same thing and that it may be easier to use a nifty wiki. Since I’m extremely stubborn I spend a good deal of time trying to make my brain comprehend the aforementioned evil Filemaker to no avail. So I found a couple of wiki things that looked like what i wanted, picked one and commenced the install.

Can you guess what’s coming next? If you know me at all, you know that it was supposed to be a very simple thing that was really straightforward but instead took me all day, a pack of smokes and 4 liters of Pepsi to figure out.

TIP: Don’t use TextEdit to make a .htaccess file when you don’t know what the hell you are doing. I will tell you what will happen to save you the time.

You will find out that your host uses PHP4 by default and you have to make Apache use PHP5 because the wiki will require only the best and nothing less. Then you will try some dumbass idea you’ve spent 2 hours looking for on the internet and just do a global extension change, only to find out that all of the source code that says ‘.php’ needs to be changed as well. So you will go and do that only to find out that it doesn’t work and was a stupid idea posted by morons who don’t know any more than you do.

So you will then call your host and ask them what to do. They will tell you to create a .htaccess file using a regular, simple text editing program and only put a tiny line of code in there to make Apache do what you want it to do. So you will do that and put it into your root folder (because they didn’t tell you any different and you have no idea) and then your whole site won’t work because the other parts of your site run on PHP4 and now you’re forcing everything to try and use PHP5 and you’ll spend another 2 hours finding that out. Then you will deduce that you should just put the .htaccess file in your wiki folder and that should fix everything.

Except it won’t. And you won’t be able to figure out why. So you’ll go into the kitchen, breathing heavy, cleaning everything in sight so that you can think clearly about things that aren’t in your brain to find in the first place. Then you’ll come back to the computer and read and re-read the .htaccess file and searching the internet for someone, ANYONE, who has the same problem and can’t figure it out. After 1.5 hours of searching you will realize that you are the only dumbass in the world with this problem. Out of all the complete idiots out there in the world, YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE with this problem. Now doesn’t that make you feel all warm and fuzzy? Yeah….no.

Finally, after pulling your hair out in chunks and realizing you missed your midday nipple soak, you will call your host, again, and tell them that you are an idiot and could they please help you. They will say….’What’s a wiki?’

So you will explain, which ends up sounding like you are a completely insane Hawaiian, and off they go to look at your .htaccess file. When they can’t find it you will feel a little smarter telling them where it is but it is short lived. They will find it and tell you that there is a bunch of ‘blah blah blah’ in there that shouldn’t be in there but is added because TextEdit is a bigger crackhead than you are. You will remove the gobbledeegook and save it to the server.

Voila! Instant Wiki!

There. That should save you a lot of time. Now for the solution. Create your .htaccess file using a ’simple’ text editing program. Add the following line, without the brackets: [ AddType x-mapp-php5 .php ] and you may need to name the file “.htaccess” to make your system happy. Upload the file to your server in the directory where it will apply. Once it’s uploaded, rename it simply .htaccess and then OPEN IT to make sure there is no crap, just the proper code. Then you’re good to go.
Now I’m too tired to play with it, I just wanna go die for 8 hours or so. G’night! *snore*

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Oct

Comments anyone?

Last night I had a very intense dream that I was doing magick for Cerridwen. WTF? Of course, I have heard the name but all I know about her is that she is a Celtic Goddess and had something to do with knowledge. So I’ll just write about my dream and anyone with input, feel free to post a comment.

It was very short, but I get the distinct feeling that there was more to it than I remember. I know that I had entered a cave and saw a woman, with her back to me, standing in front of a large cauldron with her arm straight out from her sides, like she was raising energy or something. I know I was learning something but I can’t remember what it was. There’s a possibility that it was some sort of divination, maybe scrying with the cauldron? Not very clear, but she was not any taller than I was, she was wearing a black cloak and had wavy, shiny chestnut hair about halfway down her back. I just knew that it was Cerridwen without seeing her face, but even if I had I wouldn’t have recognized her anyway because I know nothing about this woman. I remember feeling a huge surge of energy starting in the center of my chest and burning blue from there to the rest of my body. She started to turn around and I knew she was smiling but then I woke up. I couldn’t sleep for awhile because I felt like I had just consumed pure caffeine so I came downstairs and organized my office. Finally went back to sleep and nothing else continued, that I remember.

I know that Carrie Bear has Cerridwen on her altar, at least I think I remember that, so I’m hoping for some more input? Maybe? I mean, seriously. Why am I dreaming about a Goddess that I have no affinity for? Is this her time of year? Is she transformation? Is she Crone? Why is she coming to me? Why now? So many questions!

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Oct

San Diego Church of Steel Review

Anyone who knows me knows that I have had several…several…piercings in the last decade. I have been to many different places looking for that *something* that I needed and not finding it, whatever it is. I enjoyed my first piercing with Church of Steel Friday night and, despite the cheesy name, it was the most amazing experience I have ever had.

Beautiful C Bear and I decided on a whim that it was time to have our nipples pierced and decided to make a go of it that very evening. We had both been planning, individually, to have it done but I decided it was the right time and invited her along. Unfortunately, my sense of direction was all fuckered up and we ended up getting there at 8:30 and they officially closed at 9.

After letting them know what we wanted, we waited for the owner to speak with us as he is the resident hole maker as well. He comes over to talk to us first and spent a good 20 minutes or so (could have been longer) just doing a bit of a consultation. He let us know what he would and wouldn’t do and threw some philosophy in there as well. Then there was paperwork to sign and we were taken back to the room.

C Bear was chosen to go first since she lives farther away and, if there wasn’t enough time, I could always come back on my own. You can read about her experience here.

After she was finished, it was finally my turn. Much time was spent prepping instruments (all being properly sealed and opened in our presence) and assessing the nipples because Art (the piercer) is conscious of the possibility of migration/rejection. Once it was determined that I would be able to have the rings I wanted instead of barbells, size was discussed and based on his recommendations and my desires, the perfect set was chosen.

Art then had me stand and spent a good amount of time marking position, being unhappy, wiping off the mark and marking again. When we were all satisfied, I was given permission to sit and begin some breathing exercises to remain grounded throughout the procedure.

Now, I’m not sure where this comes in but Art kept mentioning that he helps to ground his clients using the brow chakra. He also mentioned using it for centering. That I can see, grounding not so much. But anyway, he asked if I would like him to use his technique for me (which consists of mild pressure on the brow and a point on the shoulder) or if I could do it on my own. Since his use of the brow chakra was distracting for me, I opted to use my own techniques.

By this time my heart was racing and my palms were clammy and I was anxious to begin. Kind of like when you’re on your way to Disneyland and the drive there is just taking forever! My nipples stood erect in anticipation and I could definitely feel an expectation radiating from between my thighs. My thoughts were swirling like wisps of smoke in my mind and the slower things went, the more agonizing (but delicious!) it became.
Finally he started placing the clamp in the appropriate position and when he instructed me to take a big cleansing breath, I knew that we were so close to the point of no return. This time, I allowed my eyes to close to fully appreciate the experience and not stay in my body throughout the procedure. This room had a very large mirror on the wall I was facing and I knew that if I kept my eyes open I would be kept right there and miss out on something wonderful.

Cleansing breath, fully exhale, another deep breath, a full exhale and the needle went through. I had informed Art beforehand that after the needle was in I would prefer to be laid back because I wanted to avoid the nauseous feelings that come immediately after such a trauma. True to my request, back I went and I was allowed to bask in the high that only comes from endorphins. Yes, there was pain, but it was most exquisite and has lingered for two whole days, slowly tapering off to something bearable without fearing infidelity.

When I was ready, I let him know and we proceeded to the other nipple with the effects being the same. Of course, now it was doubled and I was more comfortable with this one and hardly flinched at all. Mental orgasm ensued and I would have fucked anything that offered at that moment. Luckily, I didn’t have to worry about that.

I spent awhile just enjoying the experience and chatting and Art finally went over the aftercare instructions. Now, these aren’t just any instructions. You have just received a high quality piercing experience and you are going to receive high quality aftercare instructions. This man went through each step of the process, from stepping into the shower, choosing your first cottonball, the drops of soap to use and the squeak squeak noise the ring will make when it has been rinsed properly. Of course, there was much more to it than I’m writing here but you can get the idea. I don’t feel like I have any questions about my aftercare and am thoroughly competent to make sure I heal properly. In all the piercings I have had, no one has mentioned cross-contamination and making sure to wash your hands with the soap before washing the piercing with the soap. That’s something that I already knew and that he made an issue out of us understanding it was significant.

It was almost 11pm when we finally left on our little clouds already thinking about our next piercing.

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Sep

Chakras

Chakras Mondays, 10/2-11/20, 7pm What ever your metaphysical thing is, Chakras are the building blocks to understanding yourself and others for healing, mediumship, Angel work, astral projection and daily living with the Universe. Join us for an in depth look into the Chakras, their meanings, colors, petals, energetic and physical functions with associated stones, oils, incense and balancing/aligning techniques.

Cost is $20/2-hr experiential class or $120 for all 8. Pre-paying will give you 2 classes free! Pre-registration is not required but recommended to ensure your space. Please keep in mind that these classes build on each other so consistent attendance is recommended, although arrangements may be made to make up any missed sessions. Feel free to pass the information along to those who may be interested.

Rainy’s Mystics

801 Grand Ave #3

San Marcos, CA 92078

760-744-9818

877-4-Rainys Toll Free

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Aug

Which Witch Is Which?

I know I’m going to add to this as I think of more so bear with me as this post is a work in progress. Actually, scratch that. It’s going to be a whole page on another part of my site. Yep, that’s how important it is.
For now, what makes a witch a witch? Okay, you probably have that figured out by now. But what makes one ‘advanced?’ Is it the outdated notion that one must be a High Priest/ess? Is it the adoration of many disciples or followers? Is it the experience of leading a coven or other group? Is it spending a certain amount of ‘time in rank’ or having a piece of paper telling one and all that you are ‘qualified?’ Want my opinion? Well, you’re going to get it anyway because that is why you’re here. Right?

Being advanced is not knowing the elements inside and out. It is not knowing which way to walk in circle. It is not knowing the myths of every God and Goddess ever thought of. It is not knowing divination, spellwork, herbs, crystals and minerals. It is not all of the knowledge contained in the various ‘how-to’ books littering the shelves in your local bookstore.

Being advanced is a state of mind. It is knowing all of the above but, more importantly, applying that knowledge with wisdom. It is not only standing between the worlds in ritual but in your daily life. It is the ability to lead and share your knowledge and wisdom from within the shadows. It is not needing to prove yourself and argue about the correct use of a black candle or how our way is the one true way.

Oh, the things I could say. Oh, the time I would need! Soon….

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Aug

When one door closes

Tonight we had our final Wicca 101 class, the ritual. It was completely written and centered by the students in the class. I am sad that it’s over. I am happy that it’s over. 10 weeks is a long time to do something like this where you have a continuing relationship, but not a long term committment such as a coven. I’ve seen almost every person grow and gain confidence and figure out exactly what it is that they believe and wish to practice. They have stuck with some traditional ways and adopted some of my beliefs as their own. In the end, they are all comfortable with doing what is right for them and not continuing a practice ‘just because.’ A few have learned to actually think about what they are doing and why, instead of just going through the motions because that’s what they have read in some book. Only two have developed the self discipline to take Wicca beyond it’s fluffy surface to the nitty gritty that’s beyond RavenWolf or Cunningham. I am very proud to have touched them and helped them to peel away the layers to get to the good stuff.

I feel that I have learned more from them than they ever could have learned from me and I am thankful to each of them. Yes, even the ones who tested my patience and understanding because they have made me a better teacher and person.

I am grateful to have had the opportunity to do this and am hopeful that it will come around again.

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Aug

Update yet again…

Well, it’s official. I am a dumbass.

Changed over to a new computer. Backed up all of my email. Except my inbox. /sigh

So. If you’ve sent me an email recently that was important, please send it again. Thank you and goodnight.

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Jul

Sorting it out

The last month has graced me with several opportunities to really examine what I believe and why. My beliefs haven’t changed but my understanding of them has in some ways. I know what I believe. I know why I believe the way that I do. No issues there. But getting down to the nitty gritty and having them challenged, I’ve learned that I’m not as flaky as I used to be.

One of my greatest traits is, not only the ability to truly see another person’s point of view, but the ability to understand. One of my greatest flaws is, not only the ability to truly see another person’s point of view, but the ability to understand. Huh? How do I figure that? Well, it goes like this….I believe xyz. You believe abc. Ahh…I can see where you’re coming from! Yes, looking at it that way, it does make sense! Okay, you makes sense and I make sense but where exactly do I stand on the issue? No opinion? That’s okay, less drama and conflict. As a parent, I would want to know if my child was wanting an abortion. But as a woman who had an abortion, I understand the predicament. As a female growing up in an extremely dysfunctional household I wouldn’t have felt comfortable or safe telling my parents I wanted an abortion. So which way would I vote? Hmmm….Can’t make the decision because I can see both sides.

See the problem?

But now things are becoming clearer and my opinions well defined. Up comes the conversation of power over another person through magick. Do I believe I *can* have power over another? Yes. Would I? Of course not. Do I believe I can effectively curse someone who doesn’t believe in curses? No. But what about that loophole of ‘bad luck?’ Yes. If the person is open to the idea of bad luck, all I need to do is word my curse a little differently. Yes, that is what I believe. Would I do that? Of course not. I’m just not that type of person. I have bound a person who didn’t believe in magick and it worked. It was just worded it a little differently so that it would effect them in a way they were open to.

Witches believe that they can cause change according to their will/intent. I don’t believe that is limited to working magick on myself.

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Jul

Where am I in all of this?

Tonight I went to another new moon ritual with a local group. The new moons are reserved for the women who participate and I find that I am drawn to this, more than the full moon where everyone is welcome. I never thought I would be, but here I am.

We made a little jingly jangly thing where we would string a bell for each thing we are thankful for and feel blessed by. I didn’t think about it until after, when everyone shared the things they were thankful for, that mine all involved other people and nothing for myself.

I am thankful that there is a group like this to work with, I am thankful for my husband, my kids, having a ‘job’ doing something I love and making money at it, the opportunity to teach others, my dad, my in laws, etc.

Not one bell was strung for myself. It wasn’t conscious and I don’t feel that I am not thankful for myself and blah blah blah. I mean, I love me. Really. But the $100,000 question is why are others always in the forefront of my mind with myself as an afterthought? Hmm… No answers necessary, simply rhetorical.

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Jul

Weather She likes it or not

When was the exact moment the damage started? Was it when we ‘discovered’ fire? How about when we decided to look for more way to express ourselves, such as in bronze, oils, gold? When we decided we knew what was best and created gasoline guzzling vehicles, hormones for cattle or nuclear ‘energy?’

As women, our bodies take care of themselves provided we listen to the cues and pay attention to what they actually need instead of what our minds and hearts want. The cleansing of our bodies goes in cycles. We are born with a certain number of eggs and eventually that supply runs out, signaling the onset of menopause. It’s all downhill from there.

The Mother has ways of taking care of herself. Her cleansing runs in cycles, as well. She has certain limitations, things run out and she is worn down. It’s all downhill from there.

I have to stop and laugh when I see messages on the various Yahoo groups about weather magick. In one group we were ‘invited’ to take part in a rain dance on a certain day at a certain time. You know, to focus energies and direct them for a purpose. The land is parched and we are all suffering in one way or another because of the heat and lack of rain and moisture. Yes, we want rain. Sometimes we get to the point where our very lives depend on it! Given how so very ‘enlightened’ witches are supposed to be, you’d think that we would trust the Mother to take care of herself. But we all think we know so much more than Her. We know what the earth needs, we know what will make things all better, if only this….if only that…. Will we never learn?

Go ahead, work your magick and bring rain to our cities. But don’t come bitching to me when your house is falling off your little hill because of mudslides. But wait, isn’t there a spell for that, too?

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Jul

Spinning

I have heard from some people that our lives are speeding up. We are spiraling towards an inevitable colision with reality and we just aren’t realizing that we are the ones filling up the tank, fueling our destruction.

I realize this, yet I am doing the same.

It is such a rush (no pun intended) to know that I am on my path and doing what I am supposed to be doing. I am a sponge now that I know where my talents lie and I am soaking in all of the knowledge that I can.

A week of classes towards certification starts on Monday. I will be attending 5 classes a day for almost a week, in addition to the class I’ve just started on Wednesday evenings and keeping the class I am teaching, although it is almost over. I am feeling happy, stimulated and fulfilled.

My children, however, are not. My youngest came up to me and held onto my legs and said, “I’m so glad you’re home, Mommy.”

I’ve already paid for my classes next week so I feel obligated to attend. I can’t just throw away $175. I do have some ideas for changes immediately after. I am ending my volunteer work with PPD, for various reasons, and will ‘officially’ put in my notice tomorrow to take effect after this year’s event. I will attend classes next week but after that I am putting myself under restriction. I will not be obligating myself to things that are more than I can handle, and I have laid down on paper what I am willing to take on and how much time I can allot for various endeavors.

School will be starting soon and my oldest will be attending classes two days per week. On those days I will not schedule anything because I want to use that time to play with my baby, apart from his brother. The days that my oldest has classes, I am reserving the nights for family. These days will be over before I know it and I feel like their lives are just passing my by.

Yeah, change is needed. So change is what will happen.

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Jul

Much Ado About Nothing

In today’s edition of the San Diego Union-Tribune you will find a huge picture and the headline ‘Bravo, Italia!’ Of course, this refers to the World Cup that so many people are interested in. Know what I think? Well, you’re here so you must want to know. Much ado about nothing. Nothing. Zilch. Zero. Great for them but in the big picture of what’s going on, is it really necessary that this dominates the front page?

You might immediately assume that this post is about the World Cup, given the title of the post, and how I feel about it being so prominent, but you would be wrong. Here, now, I want to focus on something else. Something that deserves to be the bigger picture.

Really, are you aware that masked gunmen are executing people in Iraq? You are? Well, are you aware that they are executing Sunnis? Do you know why? Because they are Sunni. Uh huh. They are not killing allied servicemembers because we’re forcing democracy on a culture that doesn’t understand democracy. They’re not killing terrorists because they are advocating suicide bombings by women and children. Shiites are executing Sunnis. Because of who they are.

HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN RWANDA? Oh wait, they didn’t deserve this. The Iraqi people do, right? So go ahead, kill each other off because we’ll be better for it over here where our overinflated egos rule our lives, religion and politics.

But what about the people who are afraid of leaving their homes? What about the people who’s homes are stormed and family members executed in the streets with a bullet in their head solely because their last name is ‘Jubour?’ What about those who are yanked off buses and forced to show their identification proving they are Shiite and if not, they are immediately executed. What about those peace loving individuals who do not want our perverted version of government forced on them, but would still love to be able to live a happy life and not worry about whether or not their last name will get them tortured with power drills?

What are we doing about this? Are we, as a polluted government, doing anything at all? What about the U.N.? What about the E.U.? What about the Iraqi government? Is ANYONE doing ANYTHING at all?

I’m so tired of hearing about how some people deserve certain things. I’m tired of hearing that, because it has nothing to do with us, we should turn the other cheek. We are so fortunate to live in the country we do, however f***ed up it is. It is still better than most. NOT ALL, but most. While I don’t believe that we have the right to force people to live differently than they wish, I do feel that we have a responsibility to our BROTHERS AND SISTERS of the world, to make sure that this is stopped.

/sigh

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Jun

Precious Time

So here I am, finally, with a wee bit of free time on my hands. The aunt is down in Texas with her other daughter so I no longer have that daily committment to her care. I would feel bad about feeling good except I know that I did everything I could do to help during the last couple of months. I was there when I was needed and now my job is finished. I am sad about knowing I will never see her again, but we did a lot of visiting and talking and I am confident that there are no ‘I wish I would have said/done xxx.’

The Wicca class is still fun and exciting. I’m constantly looking for new things to share with them and anticipate every class. I do wish that I had the means to share all of this information with everyone who wanted to learn, without finances prohibiting them. But payment has it’s advantages, too. Not just to me personally, but to the students who make the committment to attend every week and continually learn and grow. I know that I would definitely like to teach more in the future. But we’ll see. One thing at a time.

Tumor is gone but not forgotten, appointment made to have my car repaired and the fake nails have come off to reveal lovely real nails that I have managed to keep out of my mouth. For the time being. One thing at a time.

Spring cleaning has begun, although a little late. I feel a sense of accomplishment lately, with my head clear once again. Now is the time to reflect that clarity in my surroundings. Out with the old, make better use of our space and start making the back yard actually look like a back yard. One thing at a time.

The only thing I am not looking forward to is answering my emails. I’ve neglected them the last couple of weeks because I gave priority to other, more pressing matters. Now I have almost 4000 emails from my national Yahoo groups, close to 500 for the local groups and a little over 1400 personal emails directly in my inbox. /sigh I’ll do 10 or 20 at a time and then take a break to do something else because it’s just so darn overwhelming. But I will get through them. I always do. One thing at a time.

I need to change my sleeping schedule because I feel like sleep is just getting in the way of productivity. Yeah, sounds silly but it’s true. I really don’t need 10 hours of sleep, I just end up feeling lazy the next morning. I think I’ll start experimenting with an hour less. Or just setting my alarm to get up earlier. And I gotta get off of these silly sleeping pills. One thing at a time.

Still so much to do but I’m prioritizing and things are coming along without too many headaches. Blogging is a priority now that I have more time. My posting has really declined in frequency and quality. Hoping to remedy that. One thing at a time.

All in all, life is still good.

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Jun

Slicing, Dicing and Souvenirs

Finally! The little alien growth has been removed from my body. I’m gonna miss the little guy. Not really, but we’ll get to that in a minute.

Friday afternoon I finally had my little surgery to remove that annoying little tumor from my side. I refused the anesthesia or sedation option, opting for the local so that I could continue to be my normal, bitchy self afterwards. We also celebrated my youngest’s birthday afterwards so I wanted to be able to enjoy it and not have things spoiled. The local wasn’t bad, just your typical lidocaine, but it made me just about faint and/or puke. You know how you feel just before you faint? When all of the color drains from your face and you feel hot and cold, sweating and dizzy? Yup. I could feel myself drifting a bit so I tried to make some semblance of conversation to stay somewhat alert and in the moment. The whole procedure took about 15 minutes or so, with the worst being the first shot.

Luckily, it was diagnosed as a lipoma. Nothing major. So I am really sore right now but healthy and all is well.

Oh yeah. The doc let me keep it.

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Jun

Ignorance, Biggie Sized

Me: *Gee. I’m hungry. I think I’ll stop into Wendy’s and get some grub.*

*walks through the door and gets into line behind a well dressed man, fidgeting because the order taker lady is taking too long*

Him: “Wow! You have a lot of tattoos!”
Me: “Well, not really. I just have a couple.”
Him: “Isn’t it interesting that they can use all of the colors in existance?!?”
Me: “I never thought about that but I guess it is interesting.”
Him: “You know, I always wanted to get a tattoo of a rainbow just so I could have all of the colors.”
Me: “Yeah, I suppose that would be nice.”

Me: *why is that lady taking so damned long?*

Him: “Yeah. It’s too bad, though.”
Me: “Too bad about what?”

Me: *immediately regretting continuing the conversation*

Him: “Well, you know. You can’t exactly get a tattoo of a rainbow without people thinking you’re gay.”
He Continues: “I wouldn’t want people to assume I’m gay or anything but I still think the rainbow is pretty cool.”
Me: “You know, sometimes a rainbow is just a rainbow.”
Him: “Well, how would you like it?”

Me: *fight the urge!*

Him: “I mean, you’re obviously married because you’re wearing a wedding ring.”

Me: *doing fine, almost over!*

Him: “How would you like it if people assumed you were gay?”

Me: *can’t….must…..resistance is futile!*

Me: Well, my wife does a pretty good job of convincing people that I’m gay and neither one of us has a rainbow tattoo.”

Him: *jaw drops, walks away, completely out of the store without ordering*

Cashier: *snickering* “Can I take your order?”

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Jun

I said, “Go, and be happy

I said, “Go, and be happy
but remember (you know
well) whom you leave shackled by love

“If you forget me, think
of our gifts to Aphrodite
and all the loveliness that we shared

“all the violet tiaras,
braided rosebuds, dill and
crocus twined around your young neck

“myrrh poured on your head
and on soft mats girls with
all that they most wished for beside them

“while no voices chanted
choruses without ours,
no woodlot bloomed in spring without song…”

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Jun

Wow! What a wonderful rush it is to share knowledge with people who are open to receiving it. This is such a wonderful opportunity and a very exciting one.

For those who don’t yet know, I am teaching a class called Wicca 101. Not very fond of the name but it’s very common here to find classes with that title. It sounds really….fluffy, I guess is the word I’m struggling to find. But if I were left to my own devices to name the class, it would probably sound so serious and intellectual that no one would take the class because the name was intimidating. So here we are with Wicca 101. But I’m nitpicking, as usual, so…moving on!

The people taking the class remind me of me. Go figure. They are sponges and I can see their wheels turning with every statement I make. I have to be very careful to impress upon them not to get caught up with anyone’s dogma, mine included. Everything I teach is a guideline, not law. It is simply ‘The Word of Me.’ Nothing more. I’m really trying to make a conscious effort to help them see my point of view, but others as well. Be a leader, a pioneer! Forge your own path! Trial by fire! Learning, for me, happens best when I am completely submerged in the theory and practice. For example….

One thing I am always looking out for is my own ego. My ultimate goal by the time I am dead in the ground is to be completely free of ego. I know what you’re thinking….gee, is that all? LOL One of the exercises I wanted to do was to completely engross myself in a way of life that would allow me to experience the loss of ego, at least for awhile. The exercise? I want to shave my head. Yup. Completely baby ass bald. For me, that would be a spiritual experience that I am willing to explore. I do, however, realize that this decision would inadvertantly effect my husband and my kids. From that perspective, how can I ask them to be part of something they aren’t willing to deal with for my own spiritual growth? By forcing them to deal with the implications….isn’t that ego? I think that it is. So here I am, still with a head full of hair.

Anyway, I realize that not everyone will learn the way I do. I realize that there is going to be at least one person in the class who, when talking with others about the class, will say, “But the teacher says this…!” I hope not but if it happens, I hope it’s just to illustrate another point of view.

I’m learning each student, not by their names or the way they look but by their energy. They all have different colors and they all are learning at their own pace. I can see that I am going to fast for a couple, too slow for a couple of others. But for most, I seem to be right in the middle and I am comfortable with that. I wish I had more time with them! I wish I could just continue teaching this class indefinitely, covering everything in depth, holding their hands when necessary and pushing them out of the tree at other times. Some feel that they will never be able to know what I ‘know.’ They don’t realize what a hard and long road I chose to learn the things I have learned. But they will. And they will learn what they need to learn in their own time.

I am revising my course of study, yet again. Some things have become a priority and others are sinking into the background, to simply be handed out and read at their leisure. Their eyes lit up when I gave them homework last night. They were so excited! That tells me I need more interaction. They need to ‘do’ and I need to provide that guidance.

I don’t think they realize that I am still learning. From them. They keep saying that I have so much knowledge and I want to scream at them, saying NO! I only know the tiniest part of what is out there. But what I do know, I willingly share and hopefuly in the end they will see that I will have grown. That is their most valuable payment for this class, facilitating my own growth as a woman, a human, a teacher, a spiritual being and a student.

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Jun

Go to Hell

I’ve been to Hell and you should, too. Check out their helluva party going on today.

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May

My Jungle Book

So tomorrow is the big day. Er….the big weekend. I’ve been looking forward to this for days and days! I have been racking my brain on all of the ways to make it just perfect. There are so many things to think about such as making a comfortable and inviting environment along with having the necessary little items. You know, nothing was coming to me. I had so many things that I wanted to do and a certain way I wanted things to look and feel but everything I saw just wasn’t…..it. And I couldn’t figure out why I’ve had a certain song in my head but today I seemed to ‘get’ it. The song was The Bare Necessities. So now I have the bare necessities and I feel calm, cool and collected.

My aunt was admitted to the hospital today. She has a blood clot in her left leg. The only saving grace is that it’s DVT, ,or deep vein thrombosis, so there is no danger of amputation. There is, however, the danger of it travelling to her lungs and that is what we’re worrying about at the moment. I had a deep feeling of dread when she was wheeled off to the ambulance. I don’t like knowing about someone’s death so I immediately block anything that I feel is related. Not sure if this is but I sure blocked it in a hurry, just in case. Ya know?

Anyhoo…off to bed. Big day tomorrow!

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May

Collisions, Revelations and General Updates.

Yesterday I was asking my cousin for a recommendation on where to get my nails done and she suggested that we take my aunt and have everyone get their nails done. Fun, right? Except that this isn’t really my idea of fun. It’s something I felt I should do because people will be seeing my hands more often now. So they should look pretty decent, right? So yeah, we went today to the nail salon and spa. I had tips put on my fingers because I stopped biting my nails (again) and they’re really crappy. I also had a pedicure. A real, 60 minute, spa pedicure complete with massage. Would you believe it’s my first? I’ve always felt funny about someone working on my feet. Kinda like it’s degrading to them. Yeah, I know, I’ve heard it all before so you can’t say anything new. It wasn’t heaven like I’ve heard but I found out that I do like to have cute Vietnamese women rubbing my feet for 25 minutes. LOL

My aunt is not doing well but still planning on making the trip to Texas on Monday to stay with her other daughter while the one here sells her house. She screamed at me for the first time today because she said she wasn’t going to eat. But then she told me to get that damn goat out of the kitchen or I would be in a whole mess of trouble. Umm…okay.

I have my appointment on June 14th for a consultation with my surgeon. So everyone can rest easy knowing that I will be getting cut on very, very soon. The nurse actually said that they could probably pop it out in the office. Like popping a pimple, I guess. Whatever.

Oh yeah. Honey, I’m sorry that you’ll probably be reading this before I get the chance to tell you in person. One of my cousin’s neighbors backed into my brand new pretty yellow car today. With their Suburban. Yup. Dented the driver’s side door but it’s not really all that bad. Exchanged insurance information and my cousin knows them so it will all work out just fine. Don’t worry. Kay?

So that about sums it up. Well, all that I feel like writing about at this time. I’m going to bed now. Sweet sleep….finally.

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